SIGH..........

Today: +$650
Hours: 9.25
To Date: +33,783

SIGH.....so depressing to only be up $650 in the last couple days. My first session on Sunday I made $3,099 in 1 hour, and ended up a little over 2k on the day. The last session of the day I really played sloppy and didn't put nearly enough effort and energy into my play. I could have easily made another 2 buyins. So I was pretty pissed off and motivated to play good the next day. So Monday comes along and my first session I played pretty good, winning almost $100. And then after I went right back to playing very mediocre at best, losing $1500 in my next and last two sessions for the day. I honestly should have at least only lost $500 between those 2 sessions. So I'd say in the last 2 days I should at least be up around $1,500 more, and that wouldn't even be with amazing play at all. It's just soo frustrating to know that if I just played good solid poker that I would be up over $2k for the last 2 days. I have not been a proffessional lately at all, and it really bothers me that I haven't had the neccessary self discipline that is so crucial to a professional player's success. This is by far the most frustrating thing for me in poker. It bothers me so much more than getting bad beats, or running extremely bad for a week or two straight. Luckily, I'm leaving for Vegas today to have some fun for a few days. I think being down there will really help me get the right mind state again for when I get back home and back to the daily grind. I'm not even sure if I'm going to play live at all yet because I don't have enough cash on hand and will have to get some from a friend. I definitely will play at least a couple hours on the internet in the room, but that might be it. Anyway, I'm pretty sure that once I get back I will have the neccessary focus and energy available to put into playing my best everytime I play. I just can't take the agony of playing mediocre or worse, it makes playing poker way too frustrating and it's too hard on me. So when I get back I'm gonna go on a tear and be a true professional every single time I sit down to play. This trip has definitely come at a perfect time for me, VEGAS HERE I COME!

The Last Week= NOT GOOD

Sunday-Saturday: -$2,025
Hours: 19
To Date: +$33,133

Haven't updated in a week, I know I said I wouldn't be doing that anymore. But I started running really bad and just kept putting off updating. Anyway I went on a pretty sharp downswing from Sunday through Wednesday, losing around 4k in only those few days. I was playing almost half of it at $400 nl, half at $600 nl, and a few hundred hands at $1,000 nl. I got off my game a fair amount in those first 3 days or so. I was forcing things a little too much, as well as making too many bad calls with the mindset of, "there's no way he hit that gutshot, so I call." But they were hitting gut shots and miracle 2 outers, so I should have realized this sooner and started making some better folds. But over the last 3 or 4 days I have got back to playing better, not playing great at all, but at least pretty good. On Friday I finally had my first really solid day in over a week and made a little over 2k. Then I took Saturday off to recharge my batteries to be fully prepared for the last week of June, which I think should go really well.

Happy Father's Day

Today: +$357
Hours: 3
To Date: +$35,158

I'm really happy w/ my play and I've definitely taken my game up a small step to another level. After playing the way I have for the last couple weeks I'm now finally convinced that I definitely have improved enough to say that I've once again taken my game to the next level. No massive improvement or anything, but I know I am noticabely better than I was a month ago. My consistensy in my play, as well as choosing my spots much better for when to make moves/bluffs has been what I've gotten significantly better at. On a Father's Day note, there's nothing like a gift for your dad on Father's Day like telling him that you are now playing poker for a living and plan on doing so for a while. That's what I have the pleasure of doing tonight at dinner, haha. Anyway, hopefully I can get in a couple sessions today and win some money off all the father's looking to have some fun playing poker today at the 2/4 and 3/6 no limit games.

June going really well

Today: +$906
Hours: 1.5
To Date: +$34,801

For how great poker tracker has been for me, it is still really annoying sometimes when it doesn't work perfectly. I'm up on the month between $900 and $1,000 more than it says I am in my poker tracker stats. But at least I'm up almost $9k on the month and have been making about $185/hr. Hopefully the second half of the month is as good or better than the first half was. I know for a fact that my own play definitely will be, so hopefully the results will come along for the ride too.

Playing really well

Today: +$2,193
Hours: 3.5
To Date: +$33,895

Only played one session on Tuesday b/c I had to do stuff all day, and then yesterday I finally got in a few solid sessions. Still pretty damn happy w/ my play lately as I'm really putting a lot of thought, energy, and effort into every decision I make for every session. Late last night I decided to play some $400 nl Heads Up tables on Full Tilt. I played 2 tables at once and absolutely killed it. I made some really good reads and plays, as well as hitting a good amount of flops. Ended up making just under 2k in half an hour. I wish I cold have played longer, but my opponets kept on leaving me after I was owning them so I decided to call it a night after only around 30 minutes. It felt really good to book a very nice win at the heads up tables, and boosted my bankroll on Full Tilt nicely.

May results=not so good :(

Only made around $2,500 in May all together. Oh well, I ran really bad and didn't have the chance to play that much. I only played 73 hours for the whole month and got in 37,500 hands. But I guess looking at the positive side of things I did only play 18 hours a week and ran exceptionally bad, yet still managed to make as much as some of my friends will make this summer each month working 40 hour weeks as an intern full time. It also feels good to know that May is over with and the next couple months will most likely be WAY beteter.

May Rakeback

Only made $1,307 from rakeback for the month of May because I didn't get that many hours in. I'm pretty sure I will make over 2k this month.

To Date: +$31,702

Taking 1 Day off per Week

Today: +$576 (friday-monday)
Hours: 11
To Date: +$30,395

Things have been pretty up and down results wise in the last few days. I took all of Saturday off and I really think it was a good idea. I'm gonna make an effort to take 1 full day off of poker a week. It really helps clear my head and get re focused for the next few days. After taking a day off I always feel motivated and end up playing very well afterwards. So I'm gonna make sure I do this once a week. I've definitely been playing my "A" game lately so I'm feeling really good about my game right now. I'm very confident that this month and probably the next one too will be really good. Anyway that's all for now I have to go do some stuff that I'm late for.

It's Been a While....But back to regular updates

May 28th-June 7th: +$4,497
Hours: 35.25
To Date: +$29,819

It's been a while. Once I stop updating for more than 4 or 5 days I just get in a rut where I don't get back here to blog. Also, when I'm not running well and my results are lackluster I'm not nearly as motivated to want to log on here to talk about how bad things are going and post my results. But I don't want that to happen anymore and I think it's important to post very regularly not only for myself, but for any readers too, because I want people to experience through me what it's like as a poker player through the boring and bad times as well as the positive ones. So I'm gonna definitely be posting at least 4 times a week consistently from now on. Anyway, the last week and a half has been a swingy one! From my last post I went on a -$2,000 swing over the next 5 days, and then over the last 5 days I swung up around +$6,000. The last few days I've really played well and have improved a part of my game that I think will really help my bottom line in the future. I had developed a bad habit at the tables over the last couple months and didn't really realize it until about a week ago. I've been running really hot and I guess I didn't realize just how bad I had been running for the last couple weeks before this, becuase I had almost forgot what it feels like to get a lot of good hands. May ended up being a pretty bad month for me, I'm not sure what I ended up for the month but I'll post my May results in the next couple days along with my goals for April.