SO FUCKING PISSED

Today: -$944
Hours: 5
To Date: +$4,831
$200 nl win rate(to date): $45/hr

I am so fucking pissed at myself right now!! Today I played absolutely terrible, and made a terrible decision that cost me a lot of money I shouldn't have lost. Today was definitely the worst day since I've started this blog. FUCK ME! First of all, I played 3.5 hours throughout the day and was up like $200 overall. Which was absolutely ridiculous because I should have been up somewhere between $400-$600 without a doubt. But I made a few pretty bad plays, and 2 really bad unexusable plays. So I was pretty pissed at myself because today should have been a pretty nice day of poker. Then I decided to play at 2:00 am just for a little bit and see if I could make a little more money. The dumbest fucking decision ever! There was only like 6 games going, they were all pretty bad and washed up. But like an idiot I kept playing. And I proceeded to get really bad cards, get really really unlucky, and be against a couple really bad players who were on incredible rushes and hitting everything. Not only that, but I was stupidly playing heads up on two tables against these horrible players that were on unstoppable rushes. That is a terrible combination of circumstances and cost me around 6 god damn buyins. I am so pissed at myself right now, I seriously can't even take it. There is no way that if I played tomorrow the same amount of time I would have even lost half this amount, no matter what the cards. This is so fucking bad. This absolutely kills my win rate at 200 nl, which was already shitty. This is the side of poker that I hate, although it's mostly all my fault and I can only blame myself for deciding to be an idiot and play again when I was already done. So, should have been a +$500 day, and end up being a -$944 day. Sweet! Kills my winrate, kills my money in my poker account. My decision to play after the day was over cost me a shit load of money, time, my winrate, and mental state.